THE END OF THE BEGINNING

Why is that I feel  like such a scumbag for taking care of myself?  Why do I feel like such  a piece of crap?  I vowed never to hurt this person, but I had to cut my losses (of which there are many; some gains as well).  I won't focus on the losses here  (I go over those enough internally), but rather the gains:

1. I learned that I can love someone romantically

2. I learned how to be selfless

3. I learned to be more patient

4.  I learned about finally taking care of myself

5. I learned how to better establish boundaries

6. I learned that no matter how hard that I try, I cannot fix someone else.

7. I learned how to be better able to deal with my various physical challenges

Most importantly I found that I can love someone.

This feeling badly will pass.  I like my life.