MiRACLES

CJJI am feeling very flat, as if I have no affect.  I wonder if I will ever feel joyful again.  I seem to have this impending feeling of doom, as if the world will come crashing around my head.   It does not help that my cat is ill, I have a friend who was recently diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, another friend waiting for a biopsy to return, to determine whether he has mouth cancer.  Not to mention my own health concerns.   Just a shitstorm.  I cry frequently.   I am sad.

I need to shift this way of thinking.    I really do need to live each day to the fullest, to enjoy and to make time with people and my cat COUNT.  I need to try to take each day as it comes, to savor the times while I can.  I need to be in the moment.  Much easier said than done.  My sadness must not dominate  my interactions.  I will worry and cry on my own.  I need to show them how much I love them.

What do about my concerns about my own issues involving my health and well-being?   It is counter-productive  for me to live my life in fear, fear of the unknown and frightened of the 'known'.  

I need to have faith, I need to call on my belief in miracles.